Gah! Second post!

I’m not quite sure how frequent I will be posting but I suppose thats the beauty of blogs. You can post whenever you damn well please. Let’s recap on a few things…
This weekend the BF finally put myself and his business partners fiance on the costco membership! We were so excited! Adulting is stupid. LOLOL. We’re just glad that now if we need something from there, we can just go – we don’t have to wait until they’re off work or availble to go. Plus their hot dogs and pizza aren’t too shabby πŸ˜‰ So what did I do? I bought 500 spoons for work. I will never need another spoon in my life. hahaha.

I’ve also been nursing a pulled hammy from my slow pitch games on Saturday. I don’t know why I thought it would be a good idea to play 3 games in one day! I’m clearly not 18 anymore!

This past week I’ve been kicking ass at work. Not really, but I have been taking a more vocal initiative and sharing my ideas. I believe the right people have noticed. I’m finally starting to feel my voice being heard.

Other than that its just really the same ol’ shit. Oh! I lied! I harvested a TON of tomatoes from our garden and made a sauce with them! We’re going to have that tonight for dinner after the SD gets home from CCD.

The BF has been doing work outside of the house with his rents and its starting to look great! We finally picked a color to paint most of the rooms of the house! I’ve decided that this Friday, Saturday, and Sunday are our paint days sooooo no body bother us!! J.K. πŸ™‚ but fair warning ya’ll .. we’re painting! My goal is to get the living room, stairs, and SD room painted. I want to paint the bathroom but I’m going to use a different color for that. I’m 1000% ready to do this and do whatever else I need to do to get this house ready to sell ASAP. It’s a cute little house, but if we want to grow a family, which we absolutely want to do (despite the nay-sayers), it’s just flat out too small. Soooo if anyone is looking for a starter home, hit me up! πŸ˜‰
I’m a little frustrated however because I’ve heard from multiple people, “Does she realize the amount of work and effort its going to take to get this place ready to sell!?” …Uhm .. Do I know first hand? No because I’ve never had to do this, however the SIMPLE FACT that I am willing to do whatever it takes to help get the house ready so we can MOVE ON with our lives should be enough for people, but for some it doesnt seem that way. The sheer fact that this is the house the the BF and Ex-Wife lived for over a decade is litterally ALL the motivation I need. Which brings me to my next point….
The BF and I are at the point in our lives and our relationship that if anyone isn’t supportive of us.. we don’t need to be around them. Period. The reality we are facing is that we have a short window to make up for a large amount of time. We know what its like to claw and pull eachother out of extremely toxic places as friends; and when he and I first decided to give this a shot to see where it would go, neither one of us were in a good place. We know what it’s like to have our names drug through every type of social media mud out there with inaccurate information and SAY NOTHING. Add on top of that my favorite person in the world passing away when all of this was beginning to shake down – it’s a receipe for disaster. No one will EVER know or understand the head space I was in.. except for him. Because he was there … and vice versa. We were both dealing with personal shit but as I said before, some how managed to pull eachother from the wreckage that was our lives and build something much stronger than either of us encountered before. We’re soulmates and puzzle pieces. We have worked so hard to get where we are now, and the battle isn’t over – but i’ll be damned if ANYONE ruins that for us or tries to delay us. So now you all know why I have no tolerance for any negativity. If you intended to bring anything other than positive support and vibes to our table – you can go sit somewhere else.

“Being negative only makes a difficult journey more difficult. You may be given a cactus, but you don’t have to sit on it.”

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